Monday, October 31, 2005

Somebody To Love?

I was chatting with my favorite out-of-town e-hunk, and we got started talking about the single life. I've been single for a good while - I've dated a few people over the past 4 or 5 years ago, but never anything too serious. Part of that is by choice, part of it not -- I'd rather be single than in a bad relationship, and with the couple of guys I really connected with and felt like I would be willing to give it a whirl, things never really aligned in that direction.

That being said, while I'm content with my life right now, I know I'd like to have someone special in my life... at least, I like the idea of it... I guess my ideal relationship is someone who can really touch my heart, and those don't come around every day. This weekend, however, events caused me to take a closer look. Am I really ready to have someone in my life that can affect me in that deep way? Am I prepared to avoid the major screwups I've grown accustomed to making? Can I handle not being in control (which is inevitable when love is involved)?

Ugh, it seems like such a simple question on the surface -- like Jefferson Airplane singing, "Don't you want somebody to love... don't you need somebody to love... wouldn't you love somebody to love... you better find somebody to love..." Maybe the answer is easy, too, but there's so much more to it.


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