Sunday, October 31, 2004

Day of the Dead

One of the things I love in Mexican culture is the Day of the Dead. I remember my initial reaction when I was in Mexico City was that it seems incredibly morbid. We're not used to such an upfront discussion of death in American culture. What I later learned was that the Day of the Dead is not morbid at all. In fact, it is an acceptance of death as a part of life and a celebration of those that have gone before us -- those we have loved who have passed still live on. On this day, we remember them and we feel them with us, even if we can't see them.

I went to a Halloween party at the Icehouse last night. It was great to be out and social again, especially since I haven't been too terribly social lately. And in the middle of all the people and costumes, for me it was a celebration of a different sort. It was a celebration of those who have passed from my life, relationships that have run their course, chapters in life that have come to a close. And as the music played around me, I danced -- danced to remember, to celebrate and to give thanks.

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Boston Wins...

Well the Red Sox have won the World Series for the first time since 1918... The Curse, though, we'll have to wait until November 2nd to see if that is broken... I think that Boston winning is a good omen for the election, though. Of course, John Kerry is from Mass. Bush is from Texas and used to own a major league team there (the Rangers). Houston lost in the NLCS to St. Louis. The Red Sox beat the Yankees, despite the Yankees winning the first 3 games in the ALCS and despite being outspent by the Yankees by a good $70 million. Bush had his convention in New York and outspent Kerry by a similar margin. They said it couldn't be done... Boston couldn't come from behind and beat the Yankees AND St. Louis, but he did. Can Kerry come from behind to beat Bush? Let's hope the Red Sox momentum carries him to the Presidency.

And for the record, Red Sox center fielder Johnny Damon is downright woofy. Some men are born to have a beard.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004


I just read that W has come out and said that while he still supports amending the Constitution to ban gay marriage, he thinks it might be ok for states to pass some types of Civil Union and might consider extending some of the federal marriage benefits to those Civil Unions. You know, I think Bush may have finally seen the light... It makes me want to run down to the County Recorder's Office, find my ballot and recast my vote... yeah, right after I finish disembowling myself with a shrimp fork. Can this man get any more transparent? After 4 years of queer bashing us with the Religious Right, suddenly on the eve of the election where he's struggling badly he decides that maybe we should throw the homos a bone (or boner?) to appear moderate... I don't think anyone is going to be fooled by this kind of ploy. If anything I think it may turn off some of the Christian Right who are dead set against gays...

Monday, October 25, 2004

Charmed, I'm sure.

I was just watching an older episode of Charmed (that is *SO* my show...) and they had Dan (played by Greg Vaughan), Piper's former love interest (before she married Leo). It really reminded me of how incredibly attractive this guy is... I wondered why I haven't seen more of him in the media. He was on Y&R for about a year and is now on General Hospital (I was an ABC Daytime fan for about a year, so Greg has moved up in my book...). Still, I haven't gotten to see nearly as much of him (however you want to interpret that... heh!) as I'd like.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Praise the Lord and Pass the Ammunition

I was flipping through the channels and ended up watching a bit of CNN, when the subject of the election and terrorism came up. They had a clip of Jerry Falwell saying that we should track down the terrorists and "blow them all up in the name of the Lord." I don't understand why so many people follow him -- what he's saying is no different from the terrorists he demonizes. You could dress him up in a turban and put the video on Al-Jazeera TV and people would never know the difference. It just goes to show that not everyone who talks about God really understands what God is all about.

For A Good Time...

...skip this movie. Man, one of the drawbacks of having the Blockbuster movie pass is that you start running out of decent material very quickly. I just finished watching Timeline and I'm glad I didn't have to actually pay to watch it. As much as it pains me to say it, but as pretty as Paul Walker is, the man couldn't act his way out of a wet paper sack. Just awful. If you're going to make us watch him, at LEAST give us plenty of scenes with him going around shirtless. As it was, he had his clothes on the entire time and that meant I had to actually listen to him talk. BAD BAD BAD. On a more positive note, they DID have a scene with a shirtless Gerard Butler, which was pretty much the only redeeming part of the whole movie. The irony is that I actually enjoy hearing Butler speak... that Scottish brogue is incredibly sexy. I watched him in Tomb Raider 2 a few weeks ago, but he's bearded in this movie, which suits him, IMO. The only problem with watching Gerard Butler is that at any given moment I expect him to suddenly turn into Fat Bastard, start rubbing his nipples and exclaim, "I'm Dead Sexy!"

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Do Not Pass Go...

It's been a few days since I've posted anything. I had drinks with Adam and Jonny at Casey Moore's in Tempe, for Jonny's visit to Phoenix. Casey Moore's is a great bar and I hadn't been there in years. It was also my first time meeting Jonny in person, and I think things went just swimmingly. Aside from that, I've been looking at the past few days and honestly, I just don't have a whole lot going on right now -- my life has been in holding pattern while I've been looking for the right full-time job after graduation (last December). Honestly, there's a staff attorney position with the ACLU in Los Angeles that I think it the perfect job for me, but I haven't heard anything back from them yet. Aside from that, I've sent out bunches of resumes and haven't gotten much response. I'd think the market for attorney/therapist/DJ would be a little more active... Actually, a big issue is that I have a very well-defined sense of the direction I want to go and I'm not the type of person that can fake being gung ho about something that I'm not passionate about. At the same time, I've really been trying hard not to hang my hat on the ACLU position, but it really hasn't helped. Its a big reminder that I am not in control of this situation. I'm doing my best to appreciate my life the way it is right now -- I don't think I'll have this much time to myself again for a LONG time, but after a good 10 months, I'm ready to be busy again. Still, I've been looking around for some guidance from the Universe and it looks like all signs point to Hurry Up and Wait. Blah.

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

But What Happened to the Ferrets?

Ok, one of my private little pleasures is watching The Beastmaster. It's not something I do consistently, but I can't help myself. Can you blame me? Just think -- Daniel Goddard runs around in nothing but a loincloth for an hour. I confess that I did enjoy the original movie when I was a kid -- Marc Singer was decently hot back in the day. The big problem, it was an epidemic back in the 80s, was VERY bad hair. Goddard is a big improvement in just about all areas. Much easier on the eyes and an award-winning smile. The show only lasted three seasons, but the magic of syndication should keep it around for a while.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

In the Crossfire

Jon Stewart went on Crossfire last Friday, facing Tucker Carlson and Paul Begala. They were expecting Stewart to come out and be focused on laughs, but they were in for a shock. Stewart basically called both of them out for being political hacks and said that Crossfire and shows like it, while professing to be an honest debate, are really dishonest and "bad for America." It was brilliant. It was so refreshing and exciting to have someone go on the show and instead of playing along, really call things as they are. I know Stewart is going to catch a lot of flack, but this is something that needed to happen. We need more of us to stand up and speak the truth. You can watch the clip yourself here.

Monday, October 18, 2004

Children of the Spam!

Ok, I was watching Charmed this evening when I saw the most disturbing commercial. Basically, a teacher is at her desk and opens up a package of the all new Spam Singles. As she does, one of her students asks if she can have some spam as well. The teacher politely tells the child that there is only enough for one. At that point, more children pop up in a Children-of-the-Corn-like zombie mode. Quite disturbing... I mean, I thought that this country had enough to deal with and now we have to contend with Spam Singles? Has anyone every considered that Hormel may be in cahoots with Osama Bin Laden and Al-Qaida?

Saturday, October 16, 2004

My Prayers Have Been Answered!

You know, I went to bed last night with two big thoughts on my mind. First, I said, "Boy, William Shatner's last album was SO amazing... I don't think I'll ever forget his stirring rendition of Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds. I sure would love it if he came up with a new album." After laying awake thinking a little more, I came to the conclusion that the other thing that would make my life complete would be a Growing Pains reunion. I mean, I *LOVE* Kirk Cameron's televangelism show on the Christian channel. He always tells people that miracles *DO* happen. Well, now I know it's true.

I would SO sleep with Mark Wahlberg

I just got back from seeing I Heart Huckabees. An absurd, existential mindfuck. I LOVED IT. First off, I loved Jason Schwartzman in Rushmore and it was great to see him again in something equally quirky, yet brilliant. For those of you who haven't seen anything about it, Dustin Hoffman and Lily Tomlin play a couple of existential detectives that Jason Schwartzman hires to find the meaning behind a coincidence and in his life in general. It sounds strange and absurd and it is, but it works. It was odd for me finding something so completely funny and absurd and yet true in profound ways. And Mark Wahlberg looked scruffy and unkempt and I still thought he was amazingly hot.

Friday, October 15, 2004

Do Chickens Have Lips?

I just saw this today...

Man Mistakenly Cuts Off Penis, Dog Eats It

BUCHAREST (Reuters) - A elderly Romanian man mistook his penis for a chicken's neck, cut it off and his dog rushed up and ate it, the state Rompres news agency said Monday.

It said 67 year-old Constantin Mocanu, from a village near the southeastern town of Galati, rushed out into his yard in his underwear to kill a noisy chicken keeping him awake at night.

"I confused it with the chicken's neck," Mocanu, who was admitted to the emergency hospital in Galati, was quoted as saying. "I cut it ... and the dog rushed and ate it."

Doctors said the man, who was brought in by an ambulance bleeding heavily, was now out of danger.


I don't know what surprises me more - that the man could mistake his penis for a chicken's neck or that he was willing to kill the chicken for keeping him awake...

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Money for nothing...

I just finished watching a documentary called Born Rich. Basically, it was done by Jamie Johnson, an heir to the Johnson & Johnson fortune, where he interviewed his friends to explore the experience of being born into wealth. To be honest, I was expecting something along the line of the life story of the Hilton sisters - plastic surgery and never ending parties along with record-setting drug and alcohol consumption. I was really surprised by how much I could relate to most of the people interviewed. Now, I can't say I can relate to the part about having more money than I could ever spend in my lifetime. What I DID find quite compelling was their sense of feeling radically different from mainstream society, being treated differently by outsiders because of their wealth (or in many cases, their family's wealth) and trying to find meaning in a life where the "American Dream" of marriage, 2.3 kids, a dog and house in the suburbs just doesn't apply. I also found the level of apprehension and discomfort in approaching the subject to be quite notable. When it comes down to it, in a lot of ways, the experience isn't that far off from being gay -- being part of a small, isolated segment of society that is largely misunderstood and struggling to find meaning in your life when you're not cut out for the cookie cutter ideals of middle class America.

And Another Thing...

I was looking at the main publicity photo for Manhunt and al the guys in it have that icky fake-tan orange complexion. Eww. Just say "NO!" to bad spray-on tans!

I'll take a extra large helping of beef, please...

You know, I was feeling very upset because I was not eligble to be America's Next Top Model. Thanks to the good folks at Bravo, my prayers have been answered. Now there's Manhunt. Yeah, the good people at Bravo have been real champions of the gay community, and let me tell you, if there's one thing the gay community does well, its judging people SOLELY on the basis of looks. That's right, Bravo, way play to our strengths! Unfortunately, I missed the first episode, but apparently it included 16 guys in jockey shorts skydiving. I can't wait to see what they do next...

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

I Still Prefer Ashley...

Last night I read an article about some conservative group that is all bent out of shape because Wynonna Judd is performing on an Olivia Cruise. (For those of you outside the GLBT loop, Olivia Cruises are lesbian oriented cruises.) They're saying that because Wynonna is a Christian, she should not be performing for a bunch of lesbians. Wow. How out of control is that? These people have a pretty whacked out view of what Christianity really means.

Saturday, October 09, 2004

It's got wings!

Ok, I was watching Nightly News on NBC a couple of days ago and they had a commercial for adult diapers where they took a bunch of these pads and arranged them like petals in a daisy, along with a field of real daisies. What a riot. I have to say, you really have to be pretty freakin creative to market diapers for adults. At the same time, its kinda scary that the view is that only older people watch the news and are involved with current events. I think I'll stick with the WB.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004


I'm fucking bored today. So bored, I considered doing a drag show. Luckily, my beloved Betty Butterfield did it for me... (click here)

Gift Ideas

I was reading news from the BBC the other day and I ran across an article on OxFam's new gift catalog (or "catalogue" for those of you across the pond...). Basically, OxFam offers several "gifts" at various prices that go to help people in 3rd world countries. For example, I bought a brood of chickens. You could get someone started in a goat loan program, train a mobile teacher, or purchase blankets for AIDS orphans. I thought it was a great opportunity to help out in some tangible way and feel like your money had some specific impact. I know they are aiming at having people use these as gift ideas for others, but I ended up doing it just because I wanted to help out. It just made me stop and think -- I know global poverty is a big problem and its easy to sit back and not do anything because of that reality. This really helped me to feel like I could at least have an impact in someone's life. If you can do something small but still make an impact, hey, sooner or later, we're gonna get some things done.

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Never fear, SUPER KITTY is here to save the day! No way Bush can win with Super Kitty on the job...

Monday, October 04, 2004

Pin me, Baby!

Ok, I don't know about you, but one of the most homoerotic things I can think of is professional wrestling. The thing I can't quite grasp is why it works so well with the straight community. I mean, come on - a bunch of oiled, super buffed-out guys in very little clothing getting on top of each other to establish dominance... That's not prime time TV, that's one of my hottest wet dreams EVER! Well, I may not quite understand why it happens, I'm just glad that its here for all of us to enjoy...

The Green Eyed Monster

We're like electromagnetic candy!

I just took the Jealousy Test this morning...

Your score = 5

Most people who are involved in an important relationship carry a certain amount of fear and feel threatened by the possibility of being displaced and losing a partner to someone else. After all, these things happen, and when they do, it is usually very painful. Very few people display a blatant lack of jealousy. You appear to be one of them. "

Chasing Rainbows

Yesterday was the Rainbows Festival here in Phoenix. Basically, its like a gay pride festival that's a little smaller and without the parade. It was really nice to see a lot of my friends that I haven't seen in a while, especially since I haven't been going out much lately.

After the festival, there were a couple of tea dances afterward, so I split time between the two of them to be supportive. One of them was held at the club formally known as Crowbar. They've really done some nice things with the space -- makes me a little wistful for the days where we actually had a gay dance club in town.

That being said, I know I went to the events a little early, but turnout was pretty light. I hope more people showed up later, but I can't imagine that they had the types of crowds they had hoped for. Of course, this really isn't a new phenomenon -- the gay dance scene in Phoenix has been in quite a malaise in the past year and all of the promoters have been making the same mistakes and losing a lot of money. While I can agree with those that gripe that the community should support these events, the reality is that the promoters need to adjust their tactics if they want to be successful. Since nobody seems to be figuring out some of the basic rules, here is my cut:

1. Work together. There was no reason to have two events after the Rainbows Festival. It just assured that neither event would do well. There's a lot of knowhow between all the people who have put together events here in town. You'll all be better off if you pool all that talent.

2. Keep your expectations small. If you need 1000 people to show up in order to break even, you're screwed before you even start. Start off small -- no more than 150 to 200 for your first event. The other reality is that Phoenix people are cheap. I know you can charge $20-$30 cover in LA or NY. If you haven't noticed, we're not LA or NY.

3. Publicize, publicize, publicize. This is a really hard thing to do here in town. Basically, I think you need to start publicizing months in advance -- get people talking early. Handing out flyers the day of the event isn't going to cut it.

I know these aren't exactly groundbreaking ideas, but I really think they'd work.

Sunday, October 03, 2004

Casting My Ballot

Ok, so I know I beefed about thinking about voting for Ralph Nader. Well, I got my ballot yesterday and, of course, Nader was not on it. I thought about writing him in, but I decided that I felt ok with voting for Kerry since Nader was not officially on the ballot. I know that there had been a good bit of sentiment that Arizona was pretty much out of reach for Kerry but after the first debate, I think that everything is back in play. Hopefully he proves me right.

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Like A Junkie

Ok, I don't know what it is, but my Internet connection has been FUCKED the past couple of days. It started out at the office where I've been filling in the past couple of days and then it followed me home. Let me tell you, malfunctioning Internet makes Marc VERY grumpy. I've never tried heroin, but I imagine that going through a nice black tar withdrawl feels awfully similar to me without the Internet...

Friday, October 01, 2004

Haiku For The Working World

Time inches forward
Near and yet achingly far
Friday afternoon